Depressed

Today i would just like to share something about what i felt these few days. I was actually upset and depressed as people around me keeps getting pregnant but not me. Dont get me wrong, i am truly happy for them and i give them my blessings. I just cant help to feel like a little unfair and 'why not me?'

Is there something wrong with me? Or i really dont have this blessing of able to be a mother? What is it or where is it that gone wrong? Soany questions keep appearing in my head and its driving me nuts.

I did talk to some of my friends like what can i do or what should i do? But most of them says the best is just let nature takes its course and it will come. Dont be stress. I really want to be positive and optimistic but its easier said than done. I have to put up a strong front so i dont worry my husband and also to prevent him from nagging at me. I know he is worried about me too but he doesnt know the right method to comfort me. So i would rather not let him know that i am actually super duper upset. I cried whenever i think about me not being able to conceive.

Actually thru FB & Insta, I know there are alot of women out there is going thru the same as me. This actually keeps me some comfort as i know i am not alone. We are all fighting for what we want.

At the end of the day, we can only leave it to God. He is the one who gives and the one who takes. 'Ask and it will be given', this has been what that is keeping me going. I tell myself i must believe in Him and have faith as He will guide and lead me to thepath he wants me to walk. I know He is leaving all the goodies for me and now is probably not the time yet. Maybe He is waiting for the right moment to shower me with His blessings and giving me a baby. All i have to do is to have patience and wait.

I really do hope i can be strong and i know i will through prayers..

HALLELUJAH!

AMEN.